farewell / 追悼

My grand mother's funeral took place at Zenkouji Temple in Toyama prefecture, 

where my father grew up.

父の育った富山県の善興寺にて、祖母のお葬式が執り行われました。

grandma,

お婆ちゃん、

Good Bye for now.

いってらっしゃい。 

Since I was little, I have been chanting "Namu Amida Buddha" without thinking its real meanings.

but this day made me understand much deeply what it actually told us.

Meanings to condole, to commemorate and to grieve someone

are to visit his/her whole life one had gone through, and to encounter one's spirit.

Past few days, we had visited her life and heart.

小さな頃からずっと唱えてきた南無阿弥陀仏。

この言葉に、こんなに深い意味を感じたのは初めてだった。

弔うとは、訪う（とぶらう）、偲ぶことであり、

亡くなられたその人の歩んだ生涯を訪ね、その人の心に出逢う事。

この数日間、私たちは彼女のこころを訪ねてきました。